Today was a good day...

...as it made me realize that my teens don't really care about my personal life and trials. Only Janeze cared enough to call me & check if I'm ok. I know I'll be rewarded for helping people who don't care about you but it still hurts. It's good in a sense though as at least I have a reason to be cold towards them plus I won't be a fool to think that they care about me personally. That way I won't allow them to get too close. Can't wait till November. Maybe God will allow me to move on after then. I realize I need friends now so I guess it's time to go find them. Hoping they'll grow up soon though. I believe they will make it (most of them anyway) and I trust that they treat each other better than they treat me. As one of them said to me recently, why should I want her to be my friend anyway? Point taken so I'll ensure I don't make any more overtures to them anymore. Just be their teacher until November. Just my opinion. I'll pray for new friends as I now feel like Jeremiah, Hosea, Elijah and the other prophets. Oh, but wait, I AM a prophet! Darn! There goes my social life. Popular opinion has never been my friend anyway. But at least I have 4 friends I can trust and I'm grateful for them. Thank you, J, C, N, & A for your friendships. I hope I'm a great friend in return. Definitely a great day in terms of how I relate to the group. I'll be their friend but I now know that they won't be mine. Better to learn now than later. Right?.