Met with Spiritual Godfather.

Didn't plan on it but I was actually edified. I learnt some things that give me peace now after knowing them. They are:

• I won't attend church to receive anything, I go to give to other Christians. I go to God if I want to receive anything & He will decide how I'll receive it.
• I need to trust God more. God doesn't need my help. He uses me when He chooses. If He ordains something, NOTHING can stop it. He is sovereign.
  
• God doesn't depend on one person for anything. If I fail to do His Will, He can rise up anyone (or anything? ) to do my job and remove me. This is to ensure that He will get the glory not man.
• I must learn to temper my temper. Don't retaliate for every provocation by the old people. Trust God to exonerate me.
• Get help. I can't do everything alone. Also stay within the church's rules in order to protect myself if crap happens.

I needed those things I guess. Will try to apply them to my life in order to make me a better person. It is written that a wise man heeds instruction. I wish to be wiser everyday. So I'll learn from others. Later. Hope these tips help you Christians with your life too. Later.