My Grandmother died yesterday

My grandmother died at age 76 on Saturday, July 19 @ 8:30pm. This was after being rushed to KPH as her illness got worse. Thanks to all of you who prayed for me & her as it was REALLY painful to see her in pain. It seemed to have been cancer and I am angry. VERY angry. Angry at my grandma leaving me here on earth. Angry at the doctors who discharged her from the hospital and left her to die. Angry that I was not rich enough to fly her out for treatment. Angry that she had to be in so much pain as no doctor would try to treat her because her biopsy test results were not ready yet. She is the second of the 3 women who have spoilt me and made me the "monster" I am today. Only my mother is left and she has hypertension. So now anything is possible with my mom now that her mother is dead. Crying every 6 hours is now the norm for me and I still think this is all a dream that I will soon wake up from.