Van gone

They towed it out of my house today. It's the second night ever it's out fo my sight for the last 2-3 years! I feel so weird. But maybe God is taking me out of my comfort zone. Only way I survive this is my attitude. I've started looking at the bright side ( exercise, less distractions, more time with God, meet more people, etc.) so I hope I'm scoring points for God in the spiritual realm like Job did. Anyway, please pray for me. They are stripping my engine tomorrow. I hope no structural damage. Later.

Prayer life dropping

Help! I haven't been doing devotions relaibly recently. trying to force it but the love is not there. why? I know i should praise but I can't seem to want to try. I read a lot of books but not THE book. I feel helpless. Hope it's just a phase. Still fighting it though. Searching for the place I need to be to receive His infilling. later.

Van Gone

I lost my van (temporarily) due to water on Sunday. I am a bit upset but I am adjusting to walking. I am getting the hang of it though. These things keep me humble anyway. Showing me that I can lose everything in a split second. As Job said "The Lord giveth, the Lord taketh away..." so I look at it in the sense that either way, God will b glorified. Planning to buy new van soon. Pray for me.

Sin

I just realized I don't HAVE to sin everyday! It came to me when I was confessing and I couldn't find anything to confess. Please note the difference between known sins and unknown sins. I was a bit surprised, then felt weird then felt joyous. I felt liberated. and realized what Paul was saying in Romans. I am no longer a slave to sin! And it's not ok to say we sin everyday and God will understand. He does but He still feels righteous anger. Plus there are still consequences after forgiveness. Just a thought. later.

Re-shuffle

Church bureaucracy strikes again. My cell group is now a part of Evangelism (formerly it was supposedly a part of the Youth Dept.). It was a bit interesting the way things were done but I won't get into too much details. My kids are ok with it though. I was a bit annoyed by some of the church leaders but then again not every "Christian" is a Christian. I have a break today since we have walkathon in Portmore so I am spending it with my lady. Verry restful day. I am looking for a new van battery so please be praying that my van runs till I get the right battery for it.

Thursday night

It started weird. They came late for final preps. No time to pray much but God was there. No sound equipment! But the praise & worship team started well. They led well considering it was the first time.Then Janeze opened in prayer.Kim was my m.c. She was outstanding! Proud of her. Oneil did a poem. Then the boys (who had formed a singing group known as Earthen Vessels) sang. Sounded good. Then Jerdine opened the sermonette section with her piece. She was great! Did what she was supposed to. Not a hint of nervousness (except for pronouncing some words) from her. Then Stephen came out. He was crazy! HE didn't even seem to be reading. He spoke off the top of his head and funny enough, it sounded good! He did his part in his own inimitable style. Scared me but he came through well. After him was Shana-Gaye. She sang a solo. Sounded good but she thinks she wasn't as good as possible. I'll talk to her about it later. Then Maurice came out. He didn't use the speech muich. Had to remind him that we needed to go home. He was good too. Has the makings of a great pastor. Oneil returned with Troy. They sang an original song. Was shocked that Oneil could sing! Guess God can really strengthen us to do all things! They were well received. Adrian closed the sermonette section focussing on fasting. He was good but needs to work on stage presence. Minor thing though. Tanisha, Akeame, & Jerdine collected offering while Kim did announcements. Troy gave the benediction. Pastor was watching. Wondered what he was thinking? Anyway, I'll find out later. Hagos got ill. Later found out it was a kidney infection. Hope he feels better by tonight. Very proud of my people tonight. They came through. Wonder what the next assignment will be...

It's getting closer...

Thursday is the big night. A bit worried about the group's self-discipline but I know they have the ability to pull it off once they lean on God. Actually thinking of doing a full show but not sure yet. Planning a trip to Walter Fletcher Beach in Montego Bay sooon. Hope we can afford it. We'll see. Praying hard for thursday. Yesterday, we had an interesting meeting. Had 2 visitors who weren't christians. They seemed enthused. Hope they make the step soon. I like the group but they need to like themselves more now to make God's plan more effective through them. Later.